I'm not gonna lie...

We cried.
There has been so much that has gone on in our lives recently.
Crazy things,
Hard things,
Things that no one knows about but us,
Just things.

Most of these 'things' have been struggles.
Struggles that normally happen in the beginning years of a marriage but now
almost 10 years in we are struggling with.
Don't worry, our marriage is strong
it's just all the struggles we've been experiencing for so many years has really been weighing down on us.

We've been doing lots of praying and waiting.
I knew without a doubt that my husbands choice to leave Fresno and head to New Jersey to change careers was the right decision.
I knew this would be hard but it was something we needed to do.
Everything went smoothly (well mostly)
and he graduated with honors!!
Only something very few were able to say they did.
We moved back to Cali and suffered through our San Pedro adventure.
Desperate to find a new job we stumbled across something locally.
To be honest, I'm not sure which job was worse.
They both treated my husband like poo.
One actually refused to pay us when my husband worked.
Both were short lived.

He found another job working as a Commercial Truck Driver.
This company actually treated him well AND paid him for his work
But they did have enough work for him and he'd only work every other week.
Although this was really nice to have him home,
We couldn't make ends meet on those hours.

He was contacted from a friend from Dive School with a great job opportunity.
Things looked promising but no guarantee.

He was then contacted from his old boss and asked to come back and work for him.
He transitioned very easily over to this job with the clear understanding that if dive work became available he would dive.

Well we got the call from the dive company last Friday.
He not only got a temporary job in New Hampshire (3-4 weeks)
but he also got asked to join them on a huge job in Mexico.

I have such mixed emotions.
Mostly, I'm proud of my husband!!
I'm proud of his accomplishments, of his desire to succeed, of his love for us.
His bravery, his amazing heart and so much more.
It makes my heart so happy to see that he is doing something that he has ALWAYS wanted to do.
But, I'm also sad that we had to send him so far away from us for such a long period of time.

I know that I can manage here without him.
I know that I will be ok
but honestly I'll miss him.
He is my other half.

Tears ran down my check when Brayden started crying when he said goodbye this morning.
I managed to compose myself as we walked to the car.
But as I was backing out Abigayle threw her little hand up in the air and said 'bye-bye dadee'
in such a sweet innocent little voice that tears began to swell all over again.

I ask for your prayers for our family.
Changes are happening.
I'm thinking that they are good changes this time but they are life altering changes.
Please pray for Chuck's safety (he will be diving on several projects this month)
and for my sanity, lol